I have went on a few dates recently, all of the guys acted like they liked me, then they all randomly tell me that they don't want a relationship: they want a friend with benefits. I thought this pattern had changed with a guy I was seeing last week. He was wonderful, he took me out, bought us dinner and drinks, and I had the best night of my life. I even texted my best friend, and told her I was having a good night and he was different from the rest, he was amazing. Everything was going well after that, and for spring break, he had to go and visit his sister in a different state. So he asks me to meet him for breakfast before he left. So we meet, and we were having a wonderful time (he even told me, "You know….you're the last person I'm seeing before I leave"). It was cute, and I was falling for him hard. So he goes on his trip, and is constantly texting me and he even called me almost every day. Then a few days ago I receive a text saying "You are a cool girl and I really like you, but I don't want to lead you on. I am not looking for a relationship right now. You deserve better. It's you call from here". I don't know why, but I chose to still see him. Yesterday we were at lunch and it was hard for me to see him, because I want a relationship with him, and he doesn't. So I asked him later "Are you seeing other girls too?". and he responds with "The fact that you're asking me this makes me not want to see you anymore. You deserve better. We both want different things." So then I am mad because he never wants to see me again and I sent him a text saying he is no different than any other low lifes I've been with, and that I really liked him and he hurt me". That was harsh, I know. But, the text he sent me afterwards killed me. He said "So you want me to feign a relationship with you, then proceed to cheat on you or break up with you randomly?". And he also said that I can judge him all I want, but i don't know him, and he also said he could be an asshole, but he doesn't want to. I am just so distraught over this and I feel so sick today. I feel like he has a cold heart, and I told him that. Sometimes I think I'm the one who ruined it. I just feel like I am not worth it.