I'm in danger always, I'm mean if I want to spend time with D.,because all he does is sit here playing games on the computer, there's plenty of things he could do besides sit here playing games, the living room is still messed up from him claiming he was buying a washer and dryer, but he'll let me bust my ass cleaning up the mess, he want help he only does things when he wants to. I've been sick the last few weeks, but he's hardly done anything to clean up or anything, the house is a wreck, all I do is clean up after him. He only gives me his focus when he wants or needs something from me. He had the electricity turned on and I live in constant fear of being without it again if he's unhappy with me or if he can't come and go as he pleases. I need shelves hung, but will he do that for me? NO! Will he vacume, no, will he mop the floors? no. I need a man not a person to take care of ! We're suppose to have plans tomorrow but I think he'll just leave because he wasn't happy that I wanted him to quit playing games and hang out with me. When he's on the computer you haft to realize there isn't anything for me to do except, clean house, there isn't any tv, I can't see to read, I pretty much stay in my room or just go to bed, I'm so bored and unhappy, I got asked out on a date while he was out of town having fun with his family. I have ppl with whom want to spend timee with me so why should I sit here with him doing nothing? Electricity isn't worth being ignored, and used, he has sp many problems, being selfish and neglectful are 2 of them, I can see why he stays single, its just so sad for me. I really tried guys, to open up and trust only to be slaped in the face again. I'll see if we go out toorrow as was planned or if he leaves, if he leaves I'll be making some decisions based on his choices if he's wise he wont stand me up! Earlier I failed to mention that I also have no car so I can't go out and do anything either so what do I do when he's on the computer? No car, tv, no books to read, etc.
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I feel that I am always in danger also. Not a nice place to spend time. I hope you get some relief soon.