I don't have much to say here, but this has to go somewhere. I am sick and tired of having no one to talk to. I'd always believed that I would be okay if I was alone, that I would somehow survive without having companionship. But this has got to stop.
For once in my fucking life, I would just like someone that is truly there for me. Through thick and thin. Whenever I need them.
I have always been the person everyone turns to when they need comforting and advice. Never once have I turned them down or shown them a time when I couldn't be there for them. Hell, I'd been a rebound girl for guys more than I would like to count.
So for once, just fucking once, why can't I find someone that will stick by my side, and be open to listening, to just be there for me?! Is it so wrong of me to want someone to stick with me through my good times and my bad times? I don't have a friend like this or a boyfriend like this.
At this point, I am fed up with having to deal with everything on my own. I am tired of having to swallow all of my feelings and just wait for them to pass. I am sick of being disapointed from people "promising" they're gonna be there, when clearly they're not.
I'm just so tired of being the one used and tossed away. I don't want to be treated like trash, something so easy to use and get rid of. I feel like that's all I've been, to friends and to boyfriends. And there's only so much of that I can take. I'm at my breaking point. There's no one I can turn to. All I have is this…just the ability to rant about it. But even this…its not enough.