Things here have been pretty busy the last few days, so I apologize for my absence to my friends ~ especially MoonWolfEagle! I love you hon and I'm sorry I wasn't around. I also apologize to Jasper because we were supposed to talk yesterday and I never got the chance. 🙁 I'm feeling like a really crappy friend right now.

I'm so glad the weekend is over with! It's been long and busy and not my style at all. I hate having set times to be somewhere, and this weekend was full of them. But it's over now, so today I can relax. My weekend's done, the appeal paperwork for SSD is done. Everything that absolutely had to be finished is over with.

This morning I go see my psychiatrist about adjusting/changing my medication. Hopefully no more Abilify for me! 30 pounds is what it added to me. Now I have to work my butt off to get the weight off again. I only hope I can convince him that we NEED to change my medication to something else.

I think MoonWolfEagle is right ~ spring is here! I woke up this morning to the sound of rain and couldn't believe what I was hearing. We've been in a drought for awhile now, and my plants are so happy for the water. The cardinals are singing in pairs, and so are the doves and blue jays and catbirds. Wild ducks are visiting our pond on a daily basis and the Sandhill Cranes already have a chick walking with them every day on the sides of the road. They come and visit to eat the corn we put out for the ducks and them. Young squirrels are running around everywhere, confused, easily startled and ultimately funny to watch.

New blooms are starting to appear everywhere I look, as well as new foliage on the trees coming. The way the sunlight sparkles off the water is a reminder of the gorgeous days to come and how beautiful it is today too. I think today may be a hammock day if it doesn't rain more.

The only thing I've really got to complain about is the lack of sleep since Thursday. I can't get through a whole night without being up at least twice and wandering the house for hours usually. I'll be glad when the hypomania has left (even though I feel pretty good) so that I can sleep again. I get panicky whenI can't sleep because it means it will accelerate the mania if I'm in an episode. But this one is winding down quickly now, so maybe if I'm lucky when I get home today from the doctor's I'll be able to enjoy a nap. 🙂

I made it through my Mother-in-law's Easter supper without any issues…she was actually quite loving yesterday which was a nice change. I did take my own car and had my husband take his truck, and after 4 hours I decided it was time to leave. I'd had enough noise and people to last me for a month.

I tried to come home and sleep but I couldn't so I went down to Wal-Mart and bought a new bathing suit (because I can't fit into my old one ~ thanks Doc! ) and then came home and worked around the house in it because it was warm yesterday.

When the boys came home it was a mess. We had bought 130 Easter eggs for all the kids and none of them showed up except my son. So he got a crazy amount of Easter eggs and candy even though we only put out half of them for him to find. He loved it though and was really funny because his great uncle pretended to hunt and steal his eggs too. When he got home I had to open all of the eggs and take out the candy, plus clean up after all the cooking mess from the stuff we took to dinner. Aaron helped with that at least.

I was so stuffed from lunch thatI had a bowl of cereal for dinner. We had ham, garlic mashed potatoes, sweet yams, green beans with bacon and onions, cauliflower salad, sweet rolls, and cheesecake to top it off.My little sis in law made deviled eggs and the egg whites were actually colored in purple, blue, pink and red. They were so pretty that I felt bad eating them, lol.

Well, I need to get ready to go see the doctor. I'll let you know what he says and decides to put me on. Keep praying for me please! I want off of this stuff!

Love you all ~ have a blessed day!