In a few weeks I will turn 38 and in a few months my only child will be graduating high school and moving on to college.
I’m desperately trying to make some positive changes in my life, because I know that my life is about to change drastically, however, I have this overwhelming feeling of sadness and disappointment that plagues me.
I’m usually a very resilient person, and in the past, I’ve always been able to pick myself up, even after the most devastating situations, but I can’t seem to break this cycle of sadness I have been going through since October of last year.
I am trying to be good to myself and to think positively and to embrace the many gifts I have in my life, but I feel like I have been dismissed, discounted and disrespected by my friends and family. I am often an afterthought to those around me and I could really use the love and support of my friends and family right now.
When I am upset about something, my boyfriend, parents, & siblings usually just blow it off.
It seems as if, when it doesn’t affect them, then it’s not important. I would just love for someone to listen to me and not tell me I’m being dramatic or to stop stressing out about stupid things. Maybe they are not stupid to me…. Maybe I need validation sometimes….Maybe I just want to hear that everything’s is going to be okay and not” don’t be silly, your stressing out for no reason”
I hate being and feeling so negative, yet it’s been so hard to embrace anything positive. I feel alone in so many aspects of my life and I’m trying to face the bad and learn from the situations, but I feel like a doormat & a punching bag and very very defeated right now….