I am A Genderfluid Pansexual, luckily I have Parents that do not care who I love, but gender is a whole other concept, I haven’t come out as fluid yet but my parents constantly say that “there is only two genders dear” when regarding my sexuality. I do not know what to do and it is eating away at me like I am a mistake and that no one wants me. My friends say that I am loved and that I can talk to them but they will not understand it is always there just nagging and nagging and nagging. I should not be eating as much, I should not be talking as much, I’m playing to loud in band, no one wants to here me play, no one wants to hear me talk, you do not run fast enough, your not sad you are a whore, that dress is to slutty, I look like a grandma, they do not like you they just feel bad for you, I stand out too much, stop trying to blend in, are just a few of the things I say in a day. I do not know what to do. What can I do? I am a worthless piece of shit. I joined this place thinking it would help and be a place to vent. I hope I’m right. It is exam week at my school so of course my parents are 10 times as annoying right now. I am expected to be this perfect student, never fail, never fault. But I can’t do this anymore some much pressure upon my shoulders, too much responsibility to bare. I would rather get a job and live on my own. my parents would not care if I’m being honest. Life is Hell. Complete Shitty fucking hell.
Parents.
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