Today has been a day as I would describe as still. Everything seems still, quiet, and just content. A strange feeling actually. Like all the crazy thoughts that I often think, are still. Not revolving around in my head like they normally would. They are still, just sitting in the back of my mind, and much better, positive thoughts are in the foreground. I like it.
I stayed online until late last night. It was around 4:30am before I got to sleep, and woke up around 1130am. I woke up feeling positive. I don’t know what changed, but was feeling good. Not much actually happened during the day. I had a nice salad for dinner, and finished my book that I was re-reading. After dinner I took my dog down to the beach. The dog was quiet excited when there was some kids playing in the sand. My dog isn’t a vicious dog. She loves to be pat. Loves attention. I was holding her back, as to not scare the kids, I spun around in the sand, and in the process I twisted my ankle. Unfortunatly I have a sore ankle now, and my guess its going to be like that for the next few days.
For the moment, i’m going to try and keep a positive attitude towards things. I don’t know how long its going to last, but i’m going to give it a try. I have been a negative person for so long I honestly don’t know if i’m going to be able to do it. There have been some events recently that have got me down. So if I didn’t smile, i’d cry. I. Don’t. Cry… It makes me feel weak.
I’m doing ok with my being assertive. I have said a few things to people. Opinions and such, and not taken them back, if they disagree. I’m feeling good about that. I think the big test will be tomorrow when I have the meeting with the Employment people. I want to ask if i can do a course or something instead of going back to work. I don’t think i’m ready for that yet. I hope that they can help me out with this.
On that topic, Mum threw out the piece of paper that had the time of the appointment on it… After I specifically told her to make sure she didn’t! That pissed me off to no end. I bit my tongue however, and didn’t go of at her too much. Shes going to have to ring them up tomorrow and find out what time it was. I’m hoping it wasn’t early. hmm..