Basically me and my mum have a very complex relationship, i spent so much of my life hating her and inturn hating myself aswell. Things started to change for the better when she found out i was in hospital after a suicide attempt, i guess she just felt guilty..but she did try i'll give her that. But last night just ruined it all.
my family (minus my dad) went out for a meal last night to reunite with people we met on holiday last month. It started off innocently enough but after half a glass of wine my mum was drunk and was outragously flirting with the single dad who was hosting the evening. He kept buying drinks, she got worse n worse, giggling like a silly school girl at everything he said, leaning on him when she laughed, when we came to sorting the bill she was referring to the guy and her self as 'mum & dad' i was getting SO wound up. She's always moaning to people about how 'boring' my dad is coz all he does it work – HE'S BRINGING MONEY HOME FOR YOU!!!! stupid cow! I had to walk out at one point, when she started talking about staying for a sleepover at this guys house! She was saying my sister could pull a sickie from school (she's in year 11!!! if i wanted to do ANYTHING like that when i was in year 11 i'd get a slap!!) She kept saying 'i want to stay out, i don't have a life' then she started crying….ugh!!!
All my emotions came flooding back from when i was younger, and walked in on my mum in bed with another guy, she's never spoken about it. My dad doesn't know. I told my brother and he went in to 'get a tissue' and witnessed it aswell. he was probably too young to remember it now, and i wish i could talk to him about it. i don't get on with my dad but i do respect him for working hard and bringing money home and a roof over my head for 21 years. My mum doesn't deserve him.
So the past 15 months of my mum trying to reform any kind of relationship with me has gone back down to zilch. Bye mum!