Feeling kind of weird today. Feeling feisty, up, but still down. I'm really confused. I don't normally have mixed mood states, but this is one of those days apparently. To combat it I'm going to take Zach out and get some things done. That's the best thing I can doI guess.
It's another fairly nice day out, but I'm too tired to really go outside and do anything that's not necessary. It's getting hotter as the day progresses, and pretty soon it will be too hot to do anything outdoors. We'll have to wait till the sun starts it's late descent to go bike riding or playing soccer. Zachary is really getting a tummy on him and I'd like to see him lose it before school starts in August. I don't want him to get made fun of, God knows I went through that myself and it was horrible.
Another night of poor sleep, ugh. I'm feeling exhausted almost all of the time now, even on the Ritalin. I think I'm going to have to go back to using the OTC sleep meds for a little while to get my internal clock back to normal, or semi-normal ~ whatever it usually is, lol.
We are so broke it's not even funny. I have 5 days to get through with about 15 dollars. And Zach just lost his toothbrush and toothpaste, so there goes 5 of it. But I know I can do it. We've been in worse situations I think.
I have to get some more laundry done today, and clean the bathrooms and vacuum. I feel overwhelmed by it all, even though it's really not that much to do. I just want days where I feel like I can cope with the normal day to day stuff and not feel like I'm shutting down just thinking about what needs to get done.
On the positive side of things, I've lost another 3 pounds this week. Slowly but surely the weight gain from the Abilify is coming off. If I start being active it will come off even faster. I thinking about getting a Wii game for Zach and I that makes us exercise and dance. Maybe at the end of the week when we get paid I'll pick that up. The best part is that we can do it in the air conditioning!
Well, I guess I better start doing chores and feed Zachary lunch then start our errands for the day.
Happy Monday everyone, lol.
Hi there Keya–just logged on and your blog caught my eye. I am so terribly sorry to hear about your financial woes–I know how awful it is to deal with that, but my goodness, having those kind of issues along with a family to take care of…I can only imagine how much more difficult that makes it. I wish there was something I could do to help–unfortunately I’m very much struggling with $ myself, even with it being just me, just scraping by on disability for now each month. BUt yikes–$15 for the rest of the week??? That’s just not right. Maybe I could wire you like$20 or something if that would help? I feel horrible that I wouldn’t be able to more but I gotta assume any little bit would help. Just let me know. Regardless, my thoughts are with you, hang in there and be strong. Somehow you WILL get through this..