So today wasn't a good day, it always starts out ok, then from noon on until 5-6 The beast comes out! this paticular beast is over losing one of my best friends.. I have said this before. I was communicating with a girl on another web site.. we "click" and became very good friends.. not so much talking about our battle with depression.. (she) has been dx bipolar.. long story short we talk every day for two years then about 3 weeks again she quit calling.. no word at all to my emails, voice messaging .I communicated with her sister on facebook.. she and her mom were helpful at first then nothing… my "friend" stopped any kind of commucations on facebook. I believe she pretty much "blocked" me. The problem for me is that she has never said what I did or did not do or if she just became bored with our friendship.. but it feels so much more than that! She left her husband day after christmas with her two kids, Got hooked up with a guy pretty much right after.. and I am afraid that is when our talks did not seem so important to her, cuz she had alex.. what hurt the most is just leaving me.. with no explantation. I always felt like I was a support for her.. kinda like she was my way younger sister/daughter.. so this afternoon I had yet another big cry.. I deleted anything or body that might have any connections to her on facebook,,, we have no mutual friends now. well except her X . tomorrow I will pack aways all the memories from my office. and try to forget she was ever in my life. Because I know she has done that to me, and she I am pretty sure has not given me one thought!
I have such trust issues in the begining and I remember telling her that, do lie, just be straight with me… as it turned out she did neither.