Taking a break! I been creating all this morning I'm feeling Okay. My intrusive thoughts are in the back of my mind. I do a lot of embroidery work on fabric and that means using scissors. I get anxiety when I use a sharp object. My husband has to hide the knives away because I am frighten of them. If I see one I get so much anxiety it scares me. I have horrible thoughts and these thoughts are vivid! I hate it!. I work and work everyday creating art and that helps a lot.
I now live in a country I hate. There are too many memories and I feel guilty and trapped and so my thoughts get bad. And it terrifies me. So I have Harm OCD/PSTD
It's been tough and I hope with all my heart and faith that I find peace!