Hi I’m Gracie and I’m 13 I have multiple mental disorders including BPD ADHD SDD and anxiety disorder. I love animals and have multiple recently I had a pet squirrel that I took care of it fell out of a palm tree outside along with his brother they were roughly 4 days old I named them Penut (yes that is how i spell his name i wanted him to be unique) and Theo. Theo died the day I found them and penut survived for 2 weeks I woke up every 2 hours day and night to feed him and he passed away and I still blame myself so I drank 36 oz of antifreeze ended up in the hospital and then the mental hospital at the hospital the made me take off all jewelry and I lost it (it acendentally got thrown away* I was really attached to my dog tag and it may sound stupid but I’m not sure what to do. I still battle self-harm and stuff but I guess I joined to find out if their really is someone who actually understands what I feel.