To start off, I have severe anxiety and depression. I take pills for it but nothing has worked. I’ve delt with anxiety on and off for 5 years but mostly on. I do have a therapist and a regular doctor I see weekly. I’ve lost all my friends that I saw/hung out with. My boyfriend says he has had it, my family makes me feel 10000x worse when I have an anxiety attack and I literally feel like I’m dying. EVERYONE IS ABOUT TO LEAVE ME AND MY BIGGEST ANXIETY TRIGGER IS BEING ALONE, SO WHAT THE FUCK DO I WHEN IM IN FULL FUCKING FREAK OUT AND NOBODY IS WITH ME? I LITERALLY CANNOT GRASP REALITY OR ANYTHING AROUND ME. IM SCARED. I don’t want to take pills anymore, I’m so under weight and unhealthy. I want help and patience, I want someone to care for me like I’ve done for everyone else. I wish I could walk away from it all like everyone does me. Continuously hearing “it’s all in your head, just calm down” I CANT JUST CALM DOWN BECAUSE IF I COULD, I WOULDN’T BE IN THIS FUCKING SITUATION. I just feel like there is no fixing this and I’m going to live in fear my whole fucking life. Who is going to spend 24/7 with me because I’m so scared to be alone? What happens when everyone is so fucking done with me? Where do I go? An insane asylum? Will they laugh at me too and tell me it’s not serious? I fucking hate how much everyone can NEED me but when I truly need them it’s too much, I’m too much, they have better things to do.. it’s all the same, different person same excuse. I REALIZE HOW HARD IT IS TO DEAL WITH THIS BUT YOURE NOT THE ONE DEALING WITH IT EVERY FUCKING DAY, I AM.