Hi Iris, whats up?

I’m fine, just the usual issues with my parent, being ignored when in school (I must be invisible)… and I still don’t know who I am?!?…. any other trans teens out there?

How in the world do you get up enough guts to tell your folks that you can’t stand wearing boys clothes?

Don’t get me wrong, jeans and sweatshirts are super comfy. I get swallowed up in big tops, which is great. I am sure that the whole family got many glimpses of Iris when I played  “dress-up” as a kid.  Or displayed my discomfort of always having to be a boy! Skirts or dresses are fun to wear but only if I deal with the bulge first. All while “growing up” I could only dress (and live) as Iris at home.

Tucking is a challenge, especially where comfort is an issue.  I don’t need to shave,  thanks to Dad and the hormone blockers.  I tried to use tape, taking that stuff off is so painful! Once was enough!  Simple solution I’ve found is women’s swim bottoms, lined with spandex True, it took trying on dozens of pairs before I found ones that work (but this was fun). Tucking felt so foreign at first, but when I Look down there and it is all smooth, it is a real relief.  I’ve been doing this for so long now that somehow I find it more comfortable when I am tucked.

Parts of this body have always felt foreign to me

Luckily there are plenty of padded bras out there, and thank god for online shopping (where else am I going to find a 44 “A” bra?). Q – is there a size smaller than an “A”? …the silicone bra inserts were a revelation!  I was so surprised when I first started searching.

Also, leggings or tights are super nice when its cold outside and I can always say they are long-johns. Not that there are any humans nearby to see me…

I never know how I am going to feel in the morning, will I feel like a girl or like a guy?