Please read this. I need someone who understands or who can at least offer comfort.
This is copied from a chat that I had earlier. This is an account of what happened to me last night, I just didn’t have the energy to type it up again:
"my dad confronted me about a joke that i made on facebook that i thot was funny but he didn’t. i told him i understood where he was coming from and i wud take it down I even apologized. unfortunately, that didnt satisfy him because i didnt acknowledge that i myself thought it was inappropriate so he said he was going to erase my account, i got mad, went to my room, and cried. then he came into my room and said "get in here" very scarily. i walked toward his room and saw him going into his closet where his belts are so i didnt go in. he kept saying "get in here" and i said "no! you’re going to hit me!" he didnt deny it so i started to walk away. then he came after me with his belt i ran downstairs, crying, screaming, begging him to leave me alone. he backed me into a corner. i collapsed and had a panic attack. it was then that he said he wasnt going to hit me."
Last summer, my mom and I got into an arguement because of the possibility that I could’ve been pregnant. I didn’t curse her out or anything. I’d started a new medication that day, and it was making me very irritated. Suddenly, about 30 minutes into our heated arguement, she jumped on top of me, beat me with her fists, choked me, and called me a bitch. She left red marks on my neck and chest that lasted for over a week. After the beating, i was blamed for it, told by my grandparents that they would’ve done the same thing to me, and grounded for the rest of the summer. My mom walked away unscathed.
Again, if you’ve read this far, I’m calling out to you. I’m so scared and alone. It’s me against my parents and I have no one on my side. I don’t know what to do. I’m 17 years old, but I’m still under their control. I don’t know what I’ll do if something like what happened last summer happens again.