I’m so exhausted, but I am supposed to stay strong and keep pushing for the ppl that “care” about me, but if they really did care wouldn’t they want me to do what will make me happy? Maybe it’s time to say good bye and let go? I can’t keep doing this and things aren’t getting better. The days are going by slower and slower and no matter what I seem to do I am always in a bad mood and never can feel good about myself… Like there is nothing that I have been able to try that has helped me…. So I honestly don’t know how much longer I can hold on, but I will continue to do my best….