My name is Alicia and I was diagnosed with depression back in 2014-2015. And there are days that I don’t want to exist. Or days where I simply don’t want anyone to know who I am or what I’ve been through. When you look at my childhood you would think how could someone as happy as you are and as gifted as you are turned out to have depression?. Well that all started when things started to go left in my life and I had to realize that the things that I seen growing up weren’t things I should’ve seen as a child. I try to bring joy and happiness to everyone that I encounter sometimes I end up letting them down. I feel like I love myself down  but there are better days than others. I’ve always been the person that was always alone I never had real friends growing up never had friends.. I realize more and more as I get older that the only person I have is myself there’s some times where I wish I never was alive I used to feel like this when I was a child but I was always told it was wrong don’t do it it’s a sin. And that’s was stuck with me in my head this whole time which was the reason why I never did it and then I was told I was stronger than that because they’re a better day than others.