Today hasn’t been good at all :/  I’ve been dissociating all day and really at an all time low. I miss my partner, his dad followed us while we were at a dance to take photos together and grounded him for us being gay, idk how long. Probably all summer. We’ve always been there for eachother and motivating one another. It’s hard for me to do everyday things now. I can’t be there for him and he can’t be there for me. I just wish things could back to normal. I want to get wasted and not do things anymore, but I know I shouldn’t go back to drugs and I know I have to keep going even though it’s hard.