Well i was released from my mental ward yesterday. I admitted myself last thursday because my aniexty was out of control and i thought i was having a break down. So i went to local emergency and told them i felt sudiciadel and they did the whole check up blood work and stuff. Now i did have a drink and a shot before i went and i had taken alot ativan that day. So when i talked to the crisis nurse she said i had some sort of drugs in my system and i told her that she was lying but she insisted on it (still looking into it getting medical records froom that day) She asked where my son was i told her outside. So she reported me for neglect. My stepfather was home and knew i wasnt feeling good. I was so upset that she did that cause the last thing i would do was neglect my son so that only made things worse. I arrived at the ward and they had me answering questions and strip search i was so upset they told my mom to come back in couple days. I cried the whole time. I had to stay in my hospital gown cause i had no clothes and i stayed in my room till night time and called my mom asked her to bring me some clothes. I was scared of what was going to go on and the people. Some nurses were so nice others were horrible. I stayed in my room for 2 days and slept then i started coming out for groups … it wasnt so bad. I had my own clothes then my mom bought me 5 sweat outfits. so i felt comfortable. Little things annoyed me like the frig was always locked only opened 3 times a day they didnt want you snacking. You had to get approval for EVERYTHING !!!! I couldnt use my shampoo cause i might drink it i couldnt use my head phones cause the cords were to long. There were groups all day but there were times were there was nothing to do and you were bored out of your mind and you started thinking and missing everyone. I say i got some use out of it but other than that it was like being in jail. I am doing a outpatient thing now starting monday. I hope never go back cause hurt more to be away from my son.