Hello,
I recently had to quit my job because my OCD, Anxiety and depression got too out of control. My family doctor changed my prescription from the Zoloft that I had been on for years over to Effexor.
I'm really hoping this is going to help. I'm a very devoted Christian. I have never seen a counselor but it is very clear to me at this point in my life that I need to,
I have an appointment to see a counselor tomorrow. There have been many stressful events recently.
The intrusive thoughts/images come at random times. Almost seems like once I'm starting to get comfortable or happy or stressed it'll just pop in. They are inappropriate sexual images. Throughout the years, I have had all different types of intrusive images/thoughts, paranoia about washing hands, checking the locks on doors over and over, checking the vents, intrusive thoughts about death and many other random embarrassing things that would pop up.
I never talked to anyone about this until this point of my life. I have been way too embarrassed. I prayed to God recently that if I really am this corrupt and am not going to be an advantage for my family, that if he could please take me out of this world and let me into heaven. I have apologized to him so many times for these issues.
The inappropriate sexual intrusive thoughts/images that pop in, is very stressful and embarrassing, whoever is near at the time it happens my brain is confused about the association of it and the person and I do everything I can to fight the intrusive thought/image to be at all connected to the person nearest to me. This is very embarrassing and difficult for me to admit to. I hope this is something that is not just totally bizarre and uncommon to you.
Thank you for your time,
Hey there, Yeap thats ocd and anxiety working at its best, Dont be affid to chat support is key to recovery.Just word of advice becareful who you tell your weakness to they will use it aginst you. I leared that the hard way. I had to quit my job as well due to ocd and anxiety and depp. I had a full breakdown from mine and tryed to seek helo and even asked my doctor at that time if it was ocd they told me No. I though im going crazy, So I tryed to cope the best I could and I tryed killing myself boy all that did was add more pain I got to spent two days in Icu with 14% liver damage and then a week in a pysch ward. been in and out of mental hosptial since i was 12 . I had alot of trama happen in my life. Im a Christian as well I have relgions thoughts and have had many types of ocd after many appemts with doctros and thep I finally had enough and done my own reseavh and slowly improveing. You are right it hits you the worst when stressed. i have noticed mine is from slef habit and self estem and resecpt fopr myself was very low it fells like Im having to reteach myslef how to live life again. As for the good man above he understand who you are and knows your heart and knows you are having some things going on I look to him as if I would my own parents it has really helped me alot. doing reseach can help but please LIMIT your reseach to a time limit I got to carryed away with my reseach and caused myself more harm that way. I pop in from time to time you are more and welcome to message me anytime . its very hard and noone will truely understand unless they have walked in your shoes. I hope this has helped,
sorry for all the typos. Im not a typer at all.I hope your appt goes well.
Hi and welcome. I hope you will find some help and comfort here. Although my obsessions/compulsions are different from those currently bothering you, I really understand the thing about associating people with thoughts. In my case, it's associating situations or worries that have no more relevance to my compulsion than the specific people do to yours Because I've been anxious about a lot of situations lately, and I've been doing some actual cleaning, I find myself wanting to wash my hands for reasons that have nothing to do with real-world contamination. They say anxiety makes those mental connections stronger, so i guess that explains it, but we definitely need to try to fight that effect.[br][br] I hope you are able to find a therapist who can help you. Please, verify that they understand the specific behavior therapy required for OCD–it's called ERP or exposure and response prevention. It's a pretty specific form of therapy that only partly overlaps with more common therapies.
Hello, and first sharing this to others is the first step to recovery! I appluad your bravery for this!
Secondly I too, have suffered from the intrusive unwanted thoughts, weather it was sexual, harm, being near children, being around women, so and so forth. Ive come to tell you that, you are not a bad person. You are a wonderful human being and god has gifted us with this disability. Ive been telling myslef that Im blessed with OCD, and that I dont suffer. I was given this ability by god for a purpose. Maybe to help others, or just myself. I have been dealing with this for years and years, and it has been much better with the help of medication and talking about it. I have had those unwanted thoughts and have tried everything under the sun like ,shaking my, head, or tapping, washing my hands, reasurring myself, checking things. You name it Ive tried it. Now that this has been something I know that I will have for the rest of my life Ive learned little tricks here and there. Such as letting the thought pass. Take time to actually think about it, and it will slowing go away. See the thing is your mind will kling on to anything that you try to avoid at all costs. It happens subconsciously weather we like it or not .So if you just say hey this is a thought, let it pass and move on! Or give yourself 10 min a day to obsess about that thought then move on! I hope this helps. Another thing I like to do is excersize, eat right, and stay busy. So quiting your job may be doing more harm than good. I have two jobs, my day job and the other helping people live a healthier lifestyle with working out!
I hope this helps and I too am a devoted Christian. Jesus has this all planned out for us. So let him take the wheel! God Bless
While my OCD is much different than yours, I can definitely understand the anxiety. I hope the change in medication will better assist you.
I like to believe that everything in life happens for a reason, and that you are being tested. You can best this test, in time.
Peace, and take care.
I just wanted to let you know that you're not alone! I have the same OCD symptoms and have since I was 4 years old, so I've had this for 20 years now. I have what people call Pure OCD. I have sexual thoughts and thoughts of harming myself and others. At first my thoughts started with hurting my mom, because these thoughts are commonly based on the people you care about the most. But they also would web out to people around me at that given time. You are not evil! You re normal and you're a sweet person! If you were a bad person you wouldn't think these thoughts were wrong. My OCD still bothers me sometimes, but not as severe as it use to be 7 years ago…at least with the intrusive thoughts anyways. I am always here if you need to talk. Just remember that one day you'll know what's normal for your OCD and these thoughts will become a lot less bothersome. Feel free to message me about anything! Take care!
~Betty