Im 14 years old and im am grade 9. Ever since I was 6 I knew i was different. When a specific character would show up on the TV I would think they are really handsome and would get hard. At the time I didn\\\’t know what a boner was. I was so innocent. I KNEW I was different at that age already tho. My parents are not homophobic. They have friends part of the LGBTQ+ community but they dont want their children to be gay. They expressed it so many times and since then I have been afraid to come out. They would nit pick on my manneurisms ” Thats something a gay would do” “Thats not the way a guy should be acting”. But dont get them wrong. They support me and are not cold towards me [maybe yet]. Im afraid to come out. I counted that I would have 8 years before I graduate but I dont think I can keep this act up for so long. I just dont know what to do anymore. I have pictured numerous possibilities of what can happen if I come out. There are more bad than good and they have a considerable chance of happening. Furthermore, most of my friends are like that too.  I\’m afraid that I will lose everything I ever loved and that my life would change for the worse.

My descriptions above dont fit the word count and I said most of what i had to. So this is just for the word count. Hi my name is a Secret 😮 and I like memes. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Thank you for listening [ reading ] to me. I am just trying to live a normal life. I never wanted to be like this. I know a lot of other people are like this too. But i can’t change who I am. I tried so much to change who I was and who I am but its just so much. Im really trying. Im tryin so hard.