Sorry it's been so long. Here's an update.
I'm still really longing for deep and meaningful relationships. Or people who do more than notice that I haven't been there for a while when I go back to church. Like actually care and ask me to do stuff because they missed me. That would be so nice.
You know, alot of people said my ex wasn't a good idea because he's not a Christian (or is he? I don't know if just praying the prayer but no longer believing in God – as I just found out this week – qualifies). When I told them I didn't know how I'd survive without him, they'd just say I should. So we broke up, because it was the right thing to do. But how many of those people have called me to hang out? NOT ONE. It's like they care about your love life and how they think you should do it, but they don't really care about you. And most would say they do….but um, look at the date of my breakup blog post. It's already been 2 months. 2 months is a long time to not hang out with someone you claim to be the friend of, especially since before that it's been last year. And these are people I work with so there's really no excuse.
Anyhow, he and I are sort of back together, just without the title. Mainly because if I didn't have him, I'd literally have no one else to hang out with. Doesn't really matter though because he's gone right now for 10 days, and when he comes back, we only have a week together before he moves for good. At least my really good friend from last year is moving out here this summer to work at a national park about 2 hours away so I can drive up to go camping with him one weekend. I don't know what I'd do if he wasn't going to be here this summer. And it's really good because he has a girlfriend so there won't be any of that physical pressure like with me and my ex.
I'm trying a new church now. It's pretty amazing. Actually SMALL while still having the incredible worship my big church offered. But trying to get back out there and reconnect is so hard I'd almost rather stay home.
Among other news, I started a second job working 2 nights a week doing photograhy at Sears…pretty fun stuff, it's like getting paid to attend photography school. I couldn't have asked for a better second job, God really blessed me on that one.
And, on the 1st I launched a brand-new site, PurityPeople.com. Or rather, re-opened it. It was something I started about 6 years ago but got really burnt out because of my depression mainly I think, and so it was down for about a year.