how do you tell the one you truly love that it just hurts? hurts to move, to get up, to get out of the house. That you love them more than anything else but are scared. scared to say or do the wrong things. that you physically cant stand to be mad but you cant help it. how do you  show them you want to be happy and smile. yet, the only thing that happens is a sad face and just being down in the dumps. that you wanna get all dolled up and look beautiful for them. but you wanna leave your pjs on and not get out of bed. you wanna cook a 5 course meal but can barely open a can of soup….