Hi, my name is Lauren, and i recently lost my uncle to suicide. He was always someone who was there for me, and someone whom I was so close to. I went up to their house, my aunt and uncle, in Michigan, and that’s about three hours away from my house. On a Tuesday morning, around 6 in the morning, my aunt came into my room in a panic saying that my uncle is dead and we have to go outside. We went to the garage and that’s where she told me that he killed himself, and I lost it. The cops questioned my aunt and I, but I was sleeping at the time, only waking up to this. My aunt said she didn’t even think it was a gun, and they go to shooting ranges all the time. There’s a lot of details between them and now, but I just feel so helpless. I tell everyone I’m okay, but I don’t think I am. I really don’t know how to get better but it’s getting there. I just want the process to be over now, the grieving process.
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Oh lauren my heart is heavy reading your story. That experience sounds heartbreaking and traumatic. The only comfort I know is Jesus Christ. I lost my father at 10 years old suddenly. As I grew up I found myself trying to fill the painful void in alcohol and being irresponsible. That lead further into depression and anxiety. Once I decided I didn’t want to live like that anymore I went to my home church that preaches the death, burial and Resurrection of our Lord and learned I too could die out spiritually and be resurrected to a new life. All it took was for me to repent. I’m so thankful He made a way. Sure life throws hard things our way which is why I’m still learning to control anxiety. But what relief I’ve found from addiction and anger. Is this something you can relate to?