i know it will never end
until i end it
but every time i try to be at peace with an answer
a more pressing question pops in
more
more
more
more
always
if i couldi would take out my brain
beat the living shit out of it
kick it
rassle it
punch it
over and over and over
scream at it
strangle it
punch it again
i might even use weapons
bang it on things
really kick it silly
and id say
"you ruin me..
day after day
do you know that?
you ruin your own person.
just leave me alone"
and then id slam the door on the way out.
I often think about doing the same thing to my brain. It frustrates me so badly that my brain is so screwed up, and I almost feel like if I beat the hell out of it, it would start to function properly.