Well my anxiey finally broke last night. I decided enough was enough and gave myself a hard kick in the pants. This is how I deal with my feelings. Its not for everyone. But I will tell you this, I still feel anxious. The kicker is I am not focusing on negative crap and it doesn't bother me. Lets go a little deeper, this isn't the cure for everyone. Its a goal all of you should try to reach and another step for those who are far into recovery. I noticed that anxiety without depression exist only as a hightened sence of over active body functions. I spoke about cortisol before being the stress hormone. As this is released into your system when you are stressed, it gives you more energy to be angry, stressed, ect. Its what we replace with coffee. But anyhoo, after being stressed for so long this chemical release is no automated. Its so use to releasing so many times a day, now that you are no longer stressed out it countinues to release. Hence so called suprise anxitey. Which is silly. If I eat a bran muffin every morning, havea hot drink at lunch time and I have to pooh at 12 30. I don't call it a suprise. Thats how the body works. So, now the stress is gone, you have no use for this cortisol. When it kicks in, it jolts you! You say WTF! And you become frightened. No its cognative. You think about the frightening experience and you become anxious awaiting its next attack on you. The cortisol releases and boom you have a panic attack. Now your scared shitless! You stop doing things because your mind is try to tell you whats causing it but all the things you stop don't help. Now your quality of life is in the hole. You stop going to school, work, out with friends, ect. Depression sets in! You become comfy at home so your stress level stays low after you adjust but your depression level is now through the roof. Over time the cortisol stops releasing itself into your body. Panic attacks subside but the learned behavior of being affraid keeps you anxious. If you sevearly provoke that feeling it could cause you to have another attack. So, don't worry. This is all kewl! This is what you do. 1. Get motivated! Acceptyour disorder.

2. Think positive!

3.Lower the edge off of your attacks by eating well, exersizing.

4. Learn relaxation techniques that will help you sit through an attack. This is important. You can't get over a fear that you know nothing about! You need to feel an attack, be somewhat ok with whats happening to you and KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN NO DANGER!

5. Meditate! This gives your mind time to reboot! You absolutey need to do this on some level. It takes practice but 10 minutes a day is worth the results.

6. Visualize your avoidance behaviors because you are going to be working through them soon. After your body goes back to normal its time to tackle these situations that you believe make you anxious and panicy. As you do you will feel your anxiety getting stronger. This is normal, you are now releasing cortisol again. The difference is, this is now an induced release rather than automated.

This is how you get over an anxiety disorder. Some may argue but they are wrong. This is the skinny right here. The Kicker is depression. Which is why they give you anti depressants for anxiety disorders. When you are depressed you have no motivation and you can't think possitive. So you have to do things for your depression. Vitamines, exercise and constantly looking at positive things in your life will help. Some people say that their anti depressants is for their anxiety but I have never met any medicated anxiety patient that never has attacks. I know you haven't either! So if you are medicated for your disorder, this is just a crutch. You still need to work on your anxiety! For those of you who are in a slump, get the hell out of there or get on the meds. The depression will never allow you to get better! You have to get out of the funk! Don't let this freak you out. I am bi polar and I don't medicate. I have to work really hard at this. Some people can't do this as well as I do. Those people need a therapist and or medication. I know this is not for everyone at the moment. But those whom are far away from recovery should work toward this. I hope this helps some of you. If you have doubts talk to a professional and they will support what I have written here. There are many smaller parts to recovery, this is the overveiw. If you have questions, message me. I'm always glad to respond.