I’ve been depressed for years but this corona outbreak has made it worse. I struggle to get out of bed every day. I’m a 17 year old very insecure girl. I constantly contact the crisis line because I am having suicidal thoughts and I don’t know what to do. I contact the crisis line so much that they they’re going to have to restrict me and I can only contact them every 48 hours for 45 minutes a day. It’s understandable, I have no one I can talk to about how sad I feel. I’ve been to mental hospitals before and my parents wouldn’t hesitate to send me again. I really don’t want to go back to a mental hospital, it didn’t make me feel better but I guess it kept me safe. I used to cut but I don’t anymore. To keep myself busy I draw, write, exercise, and play animal crossing new leaf. Animal crossing makes me feel better. Do you have any suggestions on what I can do to make myself feel better and not be in so much mental pain? I understand that I’m the only person that can make myself happy and I can’t rely on others, but I’m not good with coping with my depression. My therapist doesn’t help and she’s leaving soon, so I’ll get a new one. I’m fighting so hard to be happy but I’m losing the battle and I’m desperate to feel better. I felt really happy last summer and I’m hoping to be that happy again.
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