September 17, 2018

Dear Community,

Last night I told the girl I like that not all of my flirting was completely platonic. She thought that all of our flirting was platonic. I’m hoping that she likes me too, but I won’t know what to do if she does. My boyfriend is going through a tough time right now and so I’m not sure if I should tell him that i want to be nonexclusive right now. I like him but I’m still trying to figure out how. But with this girl, I know I like her as more than friends. I feel like there might be something between me and this girl, but I’m so confused. I mean I just came out to everyone important to me as bisexual, but now that my boyfriend has kissed me, and it was longer than my last “kiss” (with a girl), and my heart didn’t jump like last time and I didn’t have a very strong connection to either person, I’m starting to wonder if I’m lesbian. I mean I can’t even picture myself having sex with a man, but I can with a woman.  So my confusion is building. I feel like life is only here to confuse the shit out of us. And on top of all of this I’m thinking that I might also be polyamorus. I don’t know if I spelled that right. But, anyway my life if hella confusing and on top of that my mom, who has a lesbian for a mother, is thinking that me liking girls is just a phase of me trying to be different or follow the trend of the times or whatever. I mean come on. I would expect that kind of response from my Catholic antiLGBTQ+ father, but my mom. She’s the one who’s supposed to get it. Anyway I’ll post later with updates.

From;

PrincessServeen

 

 

 

September 18, 2018

Dear Community,

I woke up to a text that said this, “Hey thanks for everything and life is just to fucking short and I want to to be my girlfriend because I have strong feelings for you and I don’t want to hold back anymore so there u have it and I will say one more thing when I first saw you I honestly felt my heart almost break but not like bad break but like a pounding of eternal love that would last forever and I just need to get that off my chest so when you read this text me back plz if not right away but soon after thanks and I LOVE YOU [Insert real name here].” and i replied, “I was gonna wait to tell you until I figured it out but given the situation I’ll tell you now. I think I might be gay.” This and his grandmother just died. I feel like a horrible person. And My boyfriend and I haven’t even been dating for two weeks and he sends me this. I am just way too freaked out to think about anything else which in turn makes school almost impossible today. I have no idea what to do. My friends are trying to tell me that I’m not a horrible person but I don’t believe them. It feels great to get this off of my chest to people I don’t actually know. Thank you for reading and I will be back with more updates.

From;

PrincessServeen

 

 

 

 

September 24, 2018

Dear Community,

I think that I’m going to dump my boyfriend this weekend. He’s coming on way too strong and I’ve tried to tell him to slow down, but I don’t think he understands what that means. He’s just so… feely. I just wish that I didn’t need to break his heart. He’s still my friend, but I’m worried that that will change when I dump him.

From;

PrincessServeen

 

 

 

April 30, 2019

Dear Community.

So I haven’t been on in a while, but I guess that that’s a good thing. I’ve felt more stable and had real life friends that I could go to for advice; but now I have a problem that I don’t think I can talk to any of my friends about. I’m dating this girl and her mom is really homophobic. Kiri, my girlfriend, just texted me and said that her mom read her texts and found out about us. She said her parents are pissed and she doesn’t know whats going to happen next. What should I do?

 

From;

PrincessServeen

1 Comment
  1. utajinx 1 year ago

    I can relate to this alot. Thank you for sharing.

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