Have not been to Depression Tribe in almost a year. Wish I would have remembered this outlet a few weeks ago when I was on the verge of sanity. A few updates since I've been gone…
After I hit rock bottom in the Winter of last year, losing my house, my job, and delving deep into depression. I decided to go back to school for my obsession with law. I'm currently 2 months away from completeling my first year of prelaw undergraduate studies.
I enjoy school, it has become my outlet, I do not much care for many of the people, but the subject has been my passion since high school. I have the highest grade point average possible of 4.0 straight A's
I have made a few new friends, and many aquaintences. I have a way about me of keeping distance, Sometimes I regret this, not often, people just don't seem to view the world on the grounds I do. It may be dark, but it's logic. There is nothing solid in this world but logic, and that's what makes it so devoid of real meaning.
The education has made me more aware of the world around me, and with a bases in law has proved the "all the world is a stage" theory, and that life is basically just a game. It doesn't matter what is right or wrong, just who is better at manipulation.
Another year has come and gone, and as I have good days I still have my dark ones. Am not cutting, have avoided it at all costs a few weeks ago I almost reached my limit. Now I just have a nervous habit of not letting regular cuts heal. I suppose pain and blood just facinate me.
Also a little irritated this doesn't have a spell check, because I am a terrible speller. lol.