Since I’ve been gone, it’s been a helluvah ride. I became depressed and started acting out (badly). Tried to kill myself once and have considered doing it again. Haven’t heard anything back from my boyfriend, but I keep trying to find him. Struggling so much. Think I know what I want to do as far as gender, but I’m holding back, for some odd reason (it’s femboy, BTW). Yesterday, I’ve been with this foster family for a week, so I’m angry. And the girls at the house keep being negative, so I’m having problems with that. People don’t really get empaths. Turns out that performance didn’t end up on Fox. I feel selfish. I really do. But, I’m really emotional. I keep crying and wish it’d stop. I think maybe I’m lovesick/homesick. But, I can’t say anything. It’s a tricky situation and if I were to say something, they’d know all about all of this. It’s not bad. It’s just that I used to live with him and so the place I’m staying would throw a fit. EVERYTHING’S upsetting me right now. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where to turn. I-I just am so…
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When hurt, people fight fiercely.
dr_fruikenstein, , Depression, Anxiety, Questions, Relationships, Stress, 0
It wasn’t too long ago that I was one half of a fight. The other half of that fight...
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Too much to deal with
snowdreamer, , Depression, Addiction, Career, Medication, Questions, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
Well I haven't written in here for a while but I thought maybe it would help to just get...
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Sometimes Friendships Suck (pointless rant)
Jazmyn_Shaye, , Depression, Bipolar, 0
I was going to say friendship in general sucks, but thats not completely true. I've been holding this in...
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Too Close To The Edge
thebadkitty, , Depression, Anxiety, 2
I’m afraid, right now. Afraid of myself… afraid of my worst inclinations… afraid of how easily those impulses rise...
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The call. The therapist
sadjac, , Depression, Addiction, Career, Depression, Therapist, Therapy, 1
I finally got a call back from the psychologist I have been ringing over the last month. I can’t...
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I get it, not Why, Why not, but What 4
The_Anomaly, , Depression, Career, Questions, Relationships, Therapist, 0
This is won of the most difficult times of my body's life span anyway. I am truly being tortured....
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Exhausted, empty
Infinitelove, , Anxiety, Anger, Anxiety, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, Religion, Sex Therapy, 1
So this past week was incredibly brutal. A friend told me she was getting married a few weeks ago...
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All The Beauty You'll Ever Need
Wyckedawkward, , Depression, Anger, Career, Depression, Relationships, Therapist, 1
The boy I'm seeing is seeing someone else. Not in the conventional sense. Our relationship has been full of...