Tonight I am thankful. Thankful I was able to help a few people with my experiences. Thankful tonight that I am off of the Klonopin , that I am on 0 meds for OCD right now. Am I struggling ? Yes , of course I am. Is it as bad as life on the pills ? No , not even close. I decided to quit the Klonopin a few months back and with only one 2 week relapse I put them down forever. I was on Brintellix for my OCD and GAD , but had an adverse reaction to it and wouldn't be seeing my psych again for 3 months , so I alerted my office told them I would call if I had any emergent needs or a breakdown and begun and all natural regiment that was suggested to me by someone else with OCD. I will readily admit that when my OCD rears its head it is still awful and there are no mind-numbing pills to make it stop , however this has forced me to work through the fear and as time has passed though it is not easy in any sense of the wordit has gotten somewhat better. I am learning to re-train my brain and cope with these feelings rather than try to medicate them out of existance. My health has improved. My weight is going down. I have more energy to do things as the days go by and I get closer and closer to cleansing my body of the meds that for so long I thought were helping me. I am not out of the woods but for the first time in a very long time I see a light at the end of the tunnel , and there is a hope in me that one day very soon I will be able to do all things I used to love and more. I am regaining my life and I look forward to this year and the journey ahead. It will be hard but rewarding and I know I can do it !