So a lot has changed since I last blogged. I went from working full-time to being a stay at home mom of 4 right before our newest addition was born in February. My anxiety flared up real bad the last month of my pregnancy despite the fact that I did not take any medication for the full pregnancy. Thank goodness though the day he was born they were able to get me some much needed Zoloft so that by the time I got home I could feel the edginess subsiding though not completely gone. If you have read any of my past blogs I had my battle with the court and my day in court with my ex who is still a pain. I have decided to eliminate his name from my vocabulary. The courts will have to live with their decision and all I can do is be there for my two little girls to the best I can be when they are with him. It is so tough because I know what he is capable of and I can't protect them but they have therapists and I hope they will confide in them if they feel at risk of further abuse. On an upnote, I am home with the children and although it adds to more stress because of trying to survive on one income…i get the greatest pay of all….love from 4 adorable little ones. I don't like to be alone, so I am trying to join every free or cheapclass available. As long as we have one activity to look forward to a day, I feel good that we are getting out. I don't commit though in case things don't go as planned. I know that once it gets warmer outside we will be able to get out of the winter blues and outside into some much needed sunshine.I know I just have to take it day by day so I don't get disappointed when things arent going right but now I feel optimistic that I can deal with this disorder…..for now