Hey guys my name is Monishia. I have lived with depression for five years. Since december of 08 my depression has worsened. I have been hospitalized 6 time and in 2 out patient clinics. Things just seem to keep getting worse and worse. I didnt think anything was going to ever get better. However then i went to a hospital called Cedar Crest. This hospital was a residential care center wich means i had to stay at least a month. I really hated this, but i knew i had to do something or i was going to be dead. Well when i went there i went there thinking how is this going to work when the others didnt. well come to find out it actually did work. the doctor there actually tried several different things to find out what was wrong. after me being there for 2wks they finally pin pointed what was wrong. and they started giving me the right medication for my problem. once they started doing that i started feeling so much better. o ya and just to let you know since december 08 i have attemped suicide at least 10 times. so if your reading this and thinking man her problems must not be that bad well im sorry but your dead wrong. my problems were horrible. but neways like i wuz saying once they started giving me the right medication things have really turned around. i have been home for almost 2months now. i can honestly say i have not thought about suicide or cutting this whole time that ive been home. so i just want to let all you know out there that if i can get better trust me so can you. so dont ever give up hope. i promise you there is hope and you will get better.

                                   Love Always,

                                           Monishia