A friend of mine in another group wrote this and it was like it was wrote about me minus the wife and husband part
So this is how it feels –
to be a mom, a wife, a friend
yet feel so alone
and like its never going to end
this is how it feels –
to never be good enough
how you spend every waking moment trying to please
yet somedays the battle is just too much
this is how it feels –
for nobody to understand
not even your husband
who claims to be your best friend
this is how it feels –
to say one thing and do another
to be perfect on the outside
but broken undercover
this is how it feels –
for your life to be a complete mess
yet people will judge you
on your only success
this is how it feels –
to have it all figured out
yet waking up every morning
in the shadow of your doubts
this is how it feels –
to be me in every way
happy on the outside
yet crying everyday….
this is how it feels –
to have depression and despair
and feel so alone yet people claim they're there
this is how it feels –
in the mind of the broken
somedays happy and content
somedays lonely and unspoken
this is how it feels –
to have a constant battle in your mind
people think you're crazy
and the next day they think you're kind
this is how it feels –
to suffer from mental strife
to be the girl who has everything
yet thinks to end her life
this is how it feels –
to cry yourself to sleep
and the one laying beside you
made promises he could not keep
this is how it feels –
to be here and out there
to be self destructive or mean and not even care
this is how it feels –
somedays it gets so bad
i wonder if this can be
the best i ever had….
this is how it feels –
to love your family with all your heart
yet want to run away
and be forever held apart
this is how it feels –
to be unimaginably confused
thanks to those who have tormented,
beaten, and abused
this is how it feels –
to be one day on top of it all
and the next day it comes crashing
like that ever dreaded fall
this is how it feels –
for someone with manic depression
who is at the end of their rope
and looking for ways of expression….
this is how it feels –
for a person who wants help
yet is too afraid to ask
because her family is too busy
and it seems a stressful task
this is how it feels –
to hide behind a lie
be the wife that they all dream of
yet somedays want to die
this is how it feels –
to wake up with a smile
then feel so sad you get sick
and the stress comes in a pile
this is how it feels –
to walk a day in my shoes
no matter what i do
I'll always feel like I lose.