I HAVE BEEN GOING THRU OCD, INTUSIVE THOUGHTS FOR OVER 35 YEARS. I ALSO WAS A CHECKER AND A CONSTANT WORRIER. I MAY HAVE THIS THE REST OF MY LIFE, BUT IT DOES NOT HAVE ME. I AM RETIRED LAW ENFORCEMENT, AND INTRUSIVE AGGRESSIVE THOUGHTS WHERE WITH ME MY ENTIRE CAREER. I HAVE BEEN ON MEDS FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, NOW WITH ALL THAT FIRST AND FOREMOST I AM A CHRISTIAN. BUT I NEVER REALLY TRUSTED GOD WHEN IT CAME TO OCD. HE WAS ALWAYS THERE, BUT I WAS NOT. NOW INSTEAD OF BEING SCARED I'M GOING STRAIGHT AHEAD. TAKING ON THIS BULLY, WE ALL HAVE SOMETHING, AND THIS IS MINE. I'VE NEVER ACTED ON THESE THOUGHTS AND NEVER WILL. I USED TO CHECK MY STOVE, THE DOOR AND HEATER VENTS 3 TO 4 TIMES A NIGHT. ONCE WAS ENOUGH. ALL THAT CHECKING AND IT WAS ALWAYS OK THE FIRST TIME. I COULD WASH MY HANDS 100 TIMES A DAY, I DIDNT, BUT IF I DID, I AM SURE THEY WOULD BE CLEAN THE FIRST TIME. AND NOTHING BAD EVER HAPPENED IF I DIDNT. MUST OUR HANDS BE CLEANER THAN A SURGEON GETTING READY TO OPERATE. GERMS HAVE BEEN AROUND LONGER THAN WE HAVE, MUST WE SKIP LIFE BECAUSE OF IT. WHAT ABOUT AFRAID TO COME OUT OF YOUR HOME, OR DRIVE, OR MEET NEW PEOPLE. GOD DOESN'T WANT US TO LIVE THIS WAY. CAST YOUR CARES TO HIM. WHAT HAS ALL OUR WORRYING HELPED. NOTHING. PEOPLE WITH OCD ARE LOVING, CARING PEOPLE WITH THE CLEANEST HANDS YOU COULD EVER MEET. I'M NOT A DOCTER, SO PLEASE DO NOT CHANGE ANYTHING IF YOU DONT WANT TO. BUT FOR ME I WILL CALL OCD WHAT IT IS, A LIE. GIVE IT TO GOD, THAT DOENT MEEN IT GOES AWAY, OR MAYBE IT WILL. BUT I CAN TELL YOU HE DOSENT WANT US LIVING IN FEAR. SO MAYBE THE NEXT TIME YOU WANT TO WASH YOUR HANDS DONT. THE NEXT TIME YOUR AFRAID OF YOUR INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS, DONT BE. THE NEXT TIME YOUR AFRAID TO MEET NEW PEOPLE, MEET THEM ANYWAY. SAY NO TO THE BULLY, ITS THE HARDEST AND MOST EXCITING THING YOU CAN DO. TALK TO JESUS AND ACCEPT HIM IN TO YOUR LIFE. HE HAS NOT FORGOTTEN ABOUT YOU.WE FORGET ABOUT HIM. HOPE THIS HELPED…..PRAY FOR EACH OTHER, WE NEED IT…………GOD BLESS JEFF
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