My life since March: my older daughter lost her temper one night and punched her sister knocking her to the floor and her face got cut open.. I had to call the police and get everything handled alone and go to wrk 1.5 hours later and try to act normal. I'm a nurse so u have to be the stoic one bcZ your in charge. And I can't call in bcz I need the money and there 13 hour shifts.Then I met her come back and had to haveher leave a week later Which broke my heart. Before this incident my middle daughter comes to me in tears saying I just don't want to live anymore mom.. Out of the blue and had to call 911 and have her receive help. She is doing great. Then a week ago my 15 month had a seizure from an unknown fever out if the blue.. She is doing great though. Then I have so many mean backing stabbing co workers that just wear me down every single day at wrk. My parents stopped talking to me for no reason several years ago and have seen my baby three times and live 5 min away. The baby's dad and I talk but live separately and he us verbally abusive almost daily and I'm just worn didn mentally to nothing. I have no one to talk to and the only thing keeping me alive is my kids- but even that's getting hard..I pray for all kinds of people at night and then ask God – to please just take me home- that I hate it here and don't want to be here anymore. Life is nothing but hard bejnga single parent for 16 years and I just wish I had a friend or anyone who cared or just a piece of joy/fun..
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Pure and simple, just going off what you are saying, you need a break. You have a ton on your plate, and you sound so mentally exhausted. When you can, and you have a day off, take some you time. Find someone who will watch your children, go to a park and walk around, or do something that you feel at peace doing. A candlelit bubble bath with some Enya playing in the background is like a mini vacay for me since I can not afford a vacation right now, and it relaxes me. You need to take care of you, too, and that time-out sounds like something that NEEDS to happen, if for no other reason to take a breath and clear your head.
I'm not a parent, but it takes the stuff of strength to be a single mom/dad. You should be proud of that strength. It's to be admired!
Sending so much love and light to you. Deep breaths. Be gentle and kind to yourself.
Thanks miss gingie! U sure r smart and have a lot of great advice! I wish u a very happy bday today! U sound like a wonderful person!