You would think that my new part-time job would be at the forefront of my mind and my worries but not at all… So the deal is I have this friend, we actually started talking again when I got out of the hospital roughly three years ago, and it was funny because she lives 3 hours away from me but we became very close. I have probably spoken about her in my previous blogs, but at the time she was pregnant, we were both in very vulnerable states and through talking we developed feelings for one another, needless to say mine were a lot stronger than hers. She is beautiful, and a great woman don't get me wrong, but at that time I look at those feelings I had as primarily being because of my vulnerability, I was desperate to an extent. It's been nearly three years since that and my feelings went away, but her most recent boyfriend just broke up with her and she is pregnant with his child, he hates her guts and wants nothing to do with her, they had a toxic relationship and I would often console her and give her advice when things would happen, but it was completely from an unbiased and perspective of a friend. She came down to my area for about a week because her mother lives in my area and I don't know suddenly seeing her again, I felt like I had fallin' for her again, and we have always been flirtacious with one another, and touchy and such but at the same time just friends. At this time I am in a completely stable position so these feelings are definitely real, as for her she is very vulnerable, but I feel like we are starting to have that more than friends connection, I don't know it is all very strange. I wish I had more answers, the uncertainty is killing me, and this sense of unrequited love is killing me even more. I would never make a move on her while she is in a vulnerable state, but it is so difficult to be quiet. I am at a loss as to what I should do, I will keep being here for her, and not let my actions towards her change because of how I feel, I guess all I can do is hope that one day we get a chance to try and have a more than friends relationship.
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Sounds like the only thing going wrong is the timing. Love is all just a question of quantum physics, molecular attraction and timing (stole that from Bull Durham!) and you have the first two all going in your favor.
I'd say all you can do is what you're doing. She's going through a tough time with a breakup while she's pregnant. Just be there for her as a friend and when she's ready hopefully she'll see you as something more. It's difficult to wait, but good things come!
Um… unless women really do like guys that treat them like crap. That seems to be the case way too often, which means I don't have a clue what I'm talking about, really.
Thanks my friend, I appreciate the feedback.