Another week over and facing days of blankness. my sister rang re: a problem with mum and what to do about her. I thought I had done my bit but now I dont know who to talk to or turn to about this. She is my mum and I feel towards her very differently than my sister does. Now I cant make decisions that take away her wishes, if she wants to give everything she has away then who am I to say no. Whether its facility policy or not, the staff should be told to politely say they cannot accept gifts and walk away, tell the boss and then the boss speak to mum re policy of the facility, but my sister ringing me and expecting me to do anything will only get mum angry at us both for discussing her behind her back. My therapist is away off sick and I feel really alone in facing this and I dont know what to do. All of a sudden since that phone call all the anxiety of before came rushing back. I feel as though there is a weight on me. And it already has been a stressful week with blood tests and ECGs to see if I have had a heart attack and then stress from working with nuts (and thats the staff) as well as helpless people that rely on us to care for them. That nut comment was a joke. We either laugh it all off or wewould be nutty. What will I do, My first instinct is to hide and sleep the days off away but that is what I always do and then I feel rotten as though I have not had any time off. I dont know I feel blank now I cant think of anything.
My week
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Bottomless
Vividnightmare, , Depression, Anger, Anxiety, Depression, 0
I don’t know where I’m going Who I am or what I’m after Everyday has become the same chapter...
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Low kind of day, not low key just low
SnowDrop, , Depression, Hoarding, Medication, Therapist, Therapy, Weight Loss, 2
I’m still low today… I cried more than I should have and the moments of feeling good have yet...
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Too Freely?
sadviolinist, , Depression, Child, Sleep Disorders, 3
I've had something on my mind for a few days that's bugging me. I know I already blogged tonight...
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Empathy Explains Why
sadviolinist, , Depression, Addiction, Career, Domestic Abuse, Relationships, 1
I'm coping a little better today. I talked with my husband for about an hour last night, and tried...
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Sleeping pills and depression, and my fucked up dream today
veryblueberry, , Depression, Anxiety, Career, Divorce, Medication, Sleep Disorders, Stress, 0
When I was 18 years old going 19, I got my first job. It was the most fantastic day...
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Being gay and emigrant
Antonio0392, , Depression, LGBT, Lesbian, Gay, LGBTQ, 2
Hi, my name is Antonio and I am from Venezuela. I am 27 years old, but only 4 of...
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What will this english paper do for me…nothing…
tearfultulip, , Depression, Anxiety, Obesity, Relationships, Stress, 0
how am i supposed to sit here and do this english paper when so much else is going on?...
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Rapid Cycling
thebadkitty, , Depression, Bipolar, Depression, Relationships, Sex Therapy, 1
My bipolar disorder is cycling really rapidly. This happens, sometimes, but I never know it, untilI I’m up to...

