Uh huh…one week is done, and WOW what a trip, Take a deep breath Michael.  I called peggy tonight while I was on my way to the  NWTF banquet, damn I miss talking to her.  It was nice to have a few minutes to chat, I will say I am so greatful for all the friends I have in my life.  My family has shown me things I never imagined possible, life can be so meaningful and unpretentious.  I Like it that way, no more agenda just taking it all in and being in the moment.  I can put my head on the pillow and sleep, I was not sure what thet would be like, especially on the sober side, in the begining I was so glad to have my sleep back, but it was "lifeless"  More of an escape or an excuse I should say.  I would go to bed at 10 and then wake at 5am, sit and pine, ponder, worry, rent out that fucking space between my ears…HA its funny now…it wasnt then though.  Pathetic? no…it was a sad time, a time that i came to realize that in all of this…I have never been alone…But even when I was, the pain and hurt never killed me…did it give me a great deal of discomfort? oh yeah…I was at a point where I was going to not even try anymore, for fear of getting hurt again, or making a mistake, or who knows what.  I could have easily just not ever went there again.  Yes Everything Happens Fast…or at least I thought so…LOL ….Life Just Happens…I no longer have to react to everything or anything and if I do it can be in my time, it does not have to be a knee jerk response to a jerk off qeustion or action.  I like that…that I can just delay the response and take time to smell the roses…WOW I like that…I like me…


Night tribe..you all are wonderful…Dont forget that…this is what we do….We are here for each other…even when no one is on…I know you all are here….
Love to all Mike


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