Hi i just wanna say this because i need to get it off my chest I am depressed and it hurts when i see people happy that once made me happy and it hurts to see the way people look at each other that is something i will never have and that hurts and most people around me always act like its all fine i smile on the outside but when no ones looking i cry and wanna die but no matter what i will always want to cry on the inside all i want is to be happy and not have to deal with all the pain

Dear davis.k.a.87,
Your pain is real…so is your instinct to reach out. That’s good. Naming what you are feeling is an important step. I live with depression too. It sounds like you have not found the people you need in your life yet. I saw this recently: “Choose people who: Choose you; Ask who you are; See you; Let you be you: Feel good to your nervous system; You can breathe easily around; You don’t need to perform for; Are good for your mental health; Want to see you win: Don’t try to control you.” – Sasha Tozzi
I try to spend as much time as possible with positive people – especially when I am feeling down. I get outside, I do something creative, or clean out a closet, or write in my gratitude journal. I am grateful you wrote what you were honestly feeling today. It made me feel less alone.
Your happiness is out there. Be well.
i can relate this and tell you that my situation is the exact samE!! you have to act fake to… to…. idk , to live? this is unfair life , we cant help but just fight it – and move along with it. </3