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Ok so here goes.  Hi to all.  I am Karima..  Today is a black day both physically and mentally for me…………truly don't know which is worse and tomorrow I have to work.

This past year and some has been pretty hard on me, my body and my financial well being.  Plus the fact that I have survived a really bad disease and am seven years free of it………………….though lots of leftovers from poisonous treatments.

I have recently moved back to the East Coast from five years in New Mexico where I went to heal and live out some dreams of owning horses, chickens and et cetera and I did that and then realized my grandson was growing up behind my back.. So I came

It took two trips of 2,000 miles each but I made it by February this year. Before moving, I had to rehome my horse, a donkey, my goats 10 chickens and my dream dog, River an Anatolian Shepherd.  Talk about trauma.

 Unfortunately for me, I moved in with two gals who are married to each other at their invitation (they have a humongus home) and we have known each other for 15+ years and they knew I have been straight to the umpth degree and yet………….well long and short is I lived there for five months and then had to move again.  They thought they had a deep pocket with no place to go. Well they were wrong.

My daughter wasn't ready for mom to move in permanently so that is why I kept looking for a little place tospend long weekends. Well I found it but that only last two weeks, so I was on themove again.  This time to  my daughter's just in time for Hurricane Irene. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh well.

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so I figured if I talked with my daughter about what she said,maybe that would help but her answer was too bad. Can't handle that though i know some people cannot admit to being wrong.

The more positivity I can put out toward my ex-husband, the better it is for me …I was just so hoping "someday" we would get it back together. I don't want to carry the "i let him down" feelings…truly it was he who let me down and their was no violence which I had been used to but lots of passive agressiveness which I never noticed because it wasn't done with fists.

Being alone without someone to love me is very hard for me. I am touchy/feeling, affectionate also independent and not acccustomed to the traditional role of wifeypoo. I am more partner oriented. is that hard to men?