My family is falling a part and I don't know hot to stay afloat and save us anymore. At a loss to the next step other than packing up my children and leaving the only home they have ever known because their father continues to refuse any form of treatment for his out of control OCD. I have spent 16 yrs with this man and I feel forced to leave and find a "Normal" life. Not only for myself but especially for my children who I feel suffer daily from their fathers OCD. I have begged, pleaded and even pretty much forced him to get treatment. After 10 yrs of living with him I gave him an ultimatum, get help or we are gone. I gave him one week to see a Dr. and get a diagnosis and get help. After packing our bags and going to a hotel, he finally went. The medication was switched a few times, sometimes I thought he was worse then better then worse. Finally after finding the right medication Luvox we started to see changes. That is until his employer told him he could not take the medication and run heavy equiptment…Of course…He stopped the medication. Another yr passes, things get worse, I beg him to go to even a hypnotist, cognitive behavioral therapist, a homeopath..ANYTHING!! My family began to fall apart again. Now, 16 yrs later I have a teenage son and an 8 yr old. We are suffering, it feels like abuse, it feels like we live with an alcoholic with no alcohol involved. We can't breathe right, can't do anything right, no one dares to touch anything, move anything or even speak most of the time. If we move an object we are belittled, he goes on and on for hours over even a screwdriver out of place. Keys aren't lying right, tv remote not placed where he wants it. He has resorted to putting a lock on the bedroom door, placing all his items in a fire box locked hiding the key, has even done so with the checkbook so I can't pay the bills. Last night it was the lines on the lawn after mowing weren't straight..He belittled me for 3 hours because I didn't mow the lawn right. Can't take it anymore, I feel like our relationship is beyond repair, I sleep in a seperate bedroom for he keeps me awake all night checking doors, windows, alarm clock, phones. He wakes up my children to see if they are breathing, opens and closes the microwave 10x at 2am…This is torture…The sad reality of it is that it doesn't have to be torture….If he'd only get the help he needs!
dawne75, , OCD, Addiction, Child, Domestic Abuse, Medication, OCD, Relationships, Sleep Disorders, Therapist, 2