I know I've blogged before about the health of my parents and how they aren't doing well. Since then there has been a period when they were doing good and got a little dog to take care of and love. Several months ago my father was in the hospital because his potassium had dropped drasticly and at that time they did dialysis on his kidneys. He also had suffered a heart attack while in that time too. He has congestive heart failure as does my mom but his kidneys are really sick and they told him theres nothing they can do and gave him about a year before they would totally give out on him. Well, last week he went to the doctor and after all the blood work etc the doctor told him his kidneys are failing more quickly than they had anticipated and that all they can do now is make sure he is comfortable because they could fail at anytime now. It's just me and my sister and my niece is getting married the 17th of this month. She lived with my parents a lot while growing up and has a very close relationship to my dad. My dad told me yesterday that he just wants to make it until her wedding and he will be happy. I pray to God he gets what he wants, it's just a simple thing to ask for.
About 4yrs ago I forgave my dad for all the abuse my sister and I suffered growing up and since we've been very close. It's not been long enough, I want and need that closeness more and more, he's the father I'd always dreamed of now and I dont' want to let him go. I know this sounds selfish but I can't help it I dont' want to lose him and no matter how much people tell you to prepare for it there is no preparing for something like losing a precious part of your life.
I'm beside myself and it's all I can think of and it seems everyone else is just going on with their day to day things like nothing is going to happen or has happened. I'm asking if you are a person who prays to please say a little prayer for him that he does make it to the wedding like he wants…like I said it's just a small thing for him to ask but we never know what's going to happen. I can't help thinking with the holidays just around the corner this years holidays are going to be worse than ever. I've never liked them and never will but now, well now I don't even want to live thru them at all I wish I could erase them.
So please if you can say a small prayer for him I would deeply appreciate it and thank you….