Help! I struggle on the daily and i dont know what to do any more! I think about it when i sleep- i think about it when i am awake. Help! Here we go… is it weird that i question my  sexuality  every single day. Yes i clasify my self as gay. But really dont know how to embrace it or love it! Here is my story which i have never told a single soul. I was sexually 😩😩 abused by a man since i was about 4 yrs old until about 9. I only got away because i move to the states with my family. For many  years i didnt think of it. But the last 10 yrs i have. That situation has really put a damper on my spirit. For some reason i am scared or frighten on everything, but most of all my sexuality. I havent been able to really get close to anyone. My biggest fear is that i consider my self gay only because i was introduce to sex early and with a man And maybe i am gay because of that. I wish i knew i was born gay.  I hate the fact that i dont know if i was born gay or gay because i am comfortable around sex with men. Everyone always has their story of when they realized they were gay. Some fell in love, some knew they were atteacted to the same sex, but for me… i dont have that story! I have so much resetment- i dont even talk to my family and only have a mediocure relationship with my parents. I also blame all my family for not looking out for me and not protecting me. I hate feeling like a victim. But  i just want it to stop! HELP!!!!!😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩😩