I am overdue on my Abilify Injection and having severe sleep disturbances. I am very tired. I have Schizophrenia, and my life has been very difficult just trying to maintain the condition. I am also not well physically due to a stomach problem called gastroparesis, that also has its own issues. I was in the er a couple of days ago because of gastroparesis. I currently need to see my GI doctor, I need to renew my medicaid, I need to see my pcp, my dermatologist, get a new psychiatrist, get a new cell phone company, check on when my acp plan runs out.. I am running on fumes. I think I am falling behind on all of these things because I have problems balancing my responsibilities. I think I have adhd, but I am not sure. I have been given adhd medication before, but I have never been tested. It seemed to help me focus and accomplish things a lot easier. I feel like I am having a rougher time without it. I just don’t want to become dependant on it. However, I started taking Lithium and I notice that I feel more balanced than I’m used to, so that is a plus. I’m usually extremely depressed. I am going to try and rest. I am sorry about bouncing from topic to topic. I’ve got an overflowing plate, and I am running on fumes. To all those out there suffering from depression just understand that things can get better, sometimes counseling/therapy, sometimes medication… sometimes both (like me). Part of my problem is that I always tried to have everything perfect all the time, when I realized that there were always going to be challenges I learned to accept it. Not saying not to strive for the best, I am embracing the journey and the blessings that I do have because there were times when I had no home, had no money, was mentally unstable, had no car, lost my husband, lost custody of my kids, went hungry, had no job, had no freedom, and had poor health. I’m not there anymore, I made it through those times. I’m a strong person, and No One can take that acquired super power from me. Word.