I really want to get something to get off my chest and I thought it would be a good idea to share it here. So I’ve been having flashbacks or thinking of when people treated me wrong in high school and said a whole lot of shit. I still remember it to this day and I can’t seem to let it go, forgive or stop thinking about it. I think of the exact hurting words someone told me about my relationship issues in high school. It wasn’t even some of their businesses anyway in the first place. I feel like those people can’t forgive me either and they want to get back at me for not listening to them. How could people be so controlling and selfish. I don’t understand how I could keep thinking about these things. I’m hurt and bothered and I feel like I live in my past and its been a struggle to stop thinking about my past so much. I can’t seem to let go of the past. I feel like I still like those people from my past and I want them to be in my life right now. I sometimes cry myself to sleep because of these problems and I feel deeply hurt by them and how they don’t want to apologize to me now or ever. I feel like they should show up on my doorstep and bring some “sorry” gift and apologize to me face to face. I had strong feelings to get revenge on those people and I also wish the worst for them too even now. Does anyone have any idea I can cope or heal these thoughts? How I could deal with these problems head on? Let me know in the comments. I feel like I need to physically fight them daily or is it my thoughts that I need to fight? I don’t want to be controlled by others. I want to live the life that I want to live and no one will prevent me from living that life. This is what I wanted others to know and I hope that someone out there could help me deal with and curtail these problems. I want those thoughts to stop letting it hurt me and I wish that I can resolve the problems completely so that I could be free from pain and misery.