Today, is going much better than most days. I am trying not to let the stress weigh me down. I feel like I try to hard to do everything. Today i made a list of my to do's and a list of my worries. and my worries outweighed my to do's usually does. I still feel like I don't want to take care of myself. I don't want to do anything. I just want to sleep all the time. I don't dress up, I don't put makeup on. I hate how I look. I just feel like I have no energy. I wish it would change. I can't make myself care anymore. I don't care about stuff I used to care about. My total attitude has changed about everything. I feel like my life has no point, I am just exsisting, and I don't want to be like that anymore. I am trying to figure things out. but things just keep getting in the way. I used to have goals, now its just stepping stones. My job is suffering, my school work is suffering, and i don't know what to do. I can't seem to get myself organized. The crying spells have almost stopped, and i don't know if its the meds or not. I have been on wellbutrin xl for 2 weeks. I am confused i don't know when i am supposed to feel better. I am really lost. I am going through this alone. My family doesn't belive in depression, and it makes it really difficult. My boyfriend doesn't know how to help. He tries but it makes him so sad to see me hate my life. To see my crying face down on the floor. I can't do this. I need help, but I dont know where to turn.